When those uncomfortable feelings and thoughts are approaching me, I want to face them down, as opposed to running away from them. Because what I have found is, if I can face them, and allow the light to shine, it begins to blank out darkness. And the more the light shines, the freer I become. I want to be free. I have a sneaking suspicion, looking at your face, you want to be free too.
Tonight our friend Skip, is going to give us some ways to go about doing this. The first step is to admit you have an issue, or hurt, or resentment, or thing, or misunderstanding. That goes back to us, the ground base, without honesty, self honesty, were not going to survive.
Alright, amends represents an attempt to right a wrong, or go back and basically acknowledge,
Aug 7th, 2014 by clevebell
Aug 2nd, 2014 by clevebell
The title says it all, just a snippet, of a spontaneous moment during our large group meeting.
. If you are interested in attending, or maybe just getting some information, to see if it's for you, see anyone who's been through the step study. See one of these people in Cafe Hope, we would like to connect with you, and maybe we can share our experience, and offer some help in the process.
What I have learned over the years, is: when you have lived the life, that some of us have lived, and become, some the things, that some of us, have become, it is extremely difficult to receive God's grace, because we are constantly trying to earn, those things, to try and make it right. Another thing I learned over the years, is: acceptance, is the beginning of change. Acceptance doesn't mean approval, it simply means I am going to accept myself, at where I find myself at this point of my life.
Mar 22nd, 2014 by clevebell
I couldn't tell you a song we sang or a bible verse that was read, except this one thing, I could tell you. That one night, I realized, I needed God in my life. And I didn't need a God of my understanding, I needed a God that understood me. I needed a God that made sense, that was real.
Step one says: we admitted we were powerless over our addictions, and that our lives had become unmanageable. But my life was full of drama. If my life didn't have drama I created it. Tonight our teaching on inventory, is very important, because, through our steps, we need to back off, just a little bit and see how we got to where we are.
Are you ready to feed on truth about your life? Well then, it's time to take out the trash. And that trash, can get pretty heavy sometimes. So we don't want to handle it alone. We need a genuine mentor, coach, or as we say, sponsor.
After working the steps, I still have issues, but I have come a long way. Committing to a year, my trust has improved dramatically. I let people in now. I don't have to do things on my own. Life doesn't seem so scary, or difficult. In matter of fact, I think God is making himself known to me right now, in speaking about this topic: TRUST
Jan 4th, 2014 by clevebell
He is going to help you with your tribulation. I've heard that Jesus is not a bridge over trouble, but a tunnel through it. We live in this American fast food, instant gratification society. And that is a frustration, we want our recovery to be instant, but it takes time. It took you many years to be in this condition, so it will take many years to undo it.
I thought maybe I had died at one time, on another planet, and they sent me to earth, the insane asylum of the universe. Because, things that happen here on earth, should never happen, the murders, the rapes, the hate, the animosity, the racism. We could go on and on. And say this is a pretty scary planet to be born into. But there is good news, and a truth.
But we have times in our life, where we feel out of control. At those moments, we think, "is there any hope?" Is this the best it is going to get? It is a small word, but it is huge in meaning. This may be your first time here tonight, but if you can leave here with just a little bit of hope, God's got a plan. The message you receive tonight, has everything to do with the hope He wants to put in your heart.
On our main meetings on Friday's, we ask a couple volunteers to recite the 12 steps.
All God's problems are because of pride. He created the spiritual being, name Lucifer. Lucifer, was a powerful being, we're told, to cover the throne of God. It was a highly exalted position. The problem, was pride was found in Lucifer. God's opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble. God, himself, cast him out of heaven, and he ended up here, on earth. 5 times, Lucifer said: I will ascend to the most high, I will become like the most high God. He had some power, but pride was his downfall.
Denial. How do face it? What is the beginning. How do we go about doing it. It is rather difficult for God to work in an environment where we are dishonest. Dishonesty makes it hard to crack that shield that is there from denial.
Some understand there is a process of recovery. So, I have to find God, clean house, deal with my past, mend relationships, work on my character defects, then, I actually have to go out and help someone else.
I really think she did a nice, job for someone who never did that before. With these weekly experiences we have a chance to see God at work in our lives. Because God takes the discarded things and makes someone special out of them. God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. Isn't that kind of neat? I am kind of glad I hang out with folks like you.
If nothing more, I would encourage you, to get out that bag, of thinking, you have to be perfect, before you give. There is a tenancy, to believe, we have to master our recovery, before we can go back, and encourage others. It's simply not true. In the church vernacular, there is an expression: " walking wet " . It means we are working out my own salvation with fear and trembling. I am not perfect. I have not arrived.